Being Pregnant
Stop Checking the Toilet Paper!!!
I have to keep telling myself this. And yet I still do it. I still check the toilet paper and then breathe a sigh of relief to see that I’m not spotting. Apparently I need the visual in order to truly believe it.
I know it’s crazy. But I can’t stop myself. However many umpteen times a day I am peeing, I am checking the toilet paper in fear of miscarrying again. It would be so nice if I could just trust my body. But my body has failed me before and I’m scared.
There. I said it. I’m scared.
And I’m not sure when or if this fear goes away. I have tried to stay as zen as possible since finding out that I am pregnant. I have consulted the 10 ways to deal with stress during pregnancy. Even my 3-year-old tells me to “take a deep breath, mom,” when I start to get panicky.
But I can’t seem to not check the toilet paper. Regardless of my physical symptoms, the nausea, exhaustion, the ache of my boobs… Regardless of the ultrasound I have had, and the reassuring flutter of the heartbeat that I have seen… Regardless of all that, I still check the toilet paper. And I’m not sure when that will go away.
I am grateful, SO GRATEFUL for this pregnancy. I am sick and aching and miserably bitchy. Yet each hormonal sign that I exemplify is confirmation that my body is doing what it should be doing in providing a house for this little babe. I want to trust my body again… but I can’t stop checking the friggin toilet paper.
Maybe I should just drip-dry for the next 7 months.
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21 Comments
jessica commented on Sep 15 11 at 9:24 amI’m almost 22 weeks and I still check the toilet paper everytime! After I had my miscarriage I asked a family member who had a miscarriage when she stopped worrying after she got pregnant again. Her answer? “When the baby was born!” I think it’s totally normal to have some level of worry. I don’t worry as much anymore, I think the toilet paper check is just a habit I can’t break at this point:)
Christa commented on Sep 15 11 at 10:01 amIt’s understandable. I had a miscarriage in October. I am now 35 weeks pregnant and I still check.
erniebufflo commented on Sep 15 11 at 10:03 amEven though my pregnancy came as a shock– the OB laughed at me when I said I wanted confirmation that there was an actual baby in there and not a hormone secreting tumor, and said I was “looking for zebras”–and then became a double shock when I found out at the first prenatal that it’s twins, I’m so excited to be pregnant, and so scared of a miscarriage, that I too check the TP every single time. Positive vibes to you and your babe. Sticky babies all around.
mybottlesup commented on Sep 15 11 at 10:17 amERNIEBUFFLO- twins!!! wow!!! congratulations. i can very much relate to what you mean. i felt so relieved to see the heartbeat on our ultrasound. i needed the confirmation too. sending you positive vibes as well.
PrincessJenn commented on Sep 15 11 at 10:22 amJust remember love… spotting doesn’t mean a miscarriage. My little hellion is living proof of that. I bled throughout my pregnancy and yet she was determined she was going to be born.
I totally understand that toilet paper dread, though. I spent 8 months saying a little prayer every time before I wiped (Oh yeah…the things neurotic pregnant women with do. lol)
Allison Zapata commented on Sep 15 11 at 10:26 amI did THE SAME THING with Leo. And I did spot a little, but I do with all my pregnancies. Love you! Super happy for you!
Ann commented on Sep 15 11 at 12:53 pmI’m 26 weeks and I still do this every time! And I spotted at first, it was terrifying, but nothing to be concerned about.
Suzanne commented on Sep 15 11 at 1:06 pmI’m 31 weeks, have never had a miscarriage or preterm labor, and I still check every time.
Lana commented on Sep 15 11 at 4:14 pmI’m now 17 weeks pregnant I check everytime. When I was 8 weeks pregnant I had ALOT of bleeding went to hospital to be told I had a miscarriage. I had to wait 2 days to have a emergency scan to be told everything was fine. I’m just wishing for the day this baby is born to get here already. :)
kiki commented on Sep 15 11 at 5:37 pmPretty sure that’s normal, especially if you’ve had problems in the past. :) I do it!
Amanda commented on Sep 15 11 at 6:54 pmI have never had a miscarriage either and I am 29 weeks pregnant and still check every time. Because they ask you at the doctors every time if you have any spotting or discharge, so I always check. I don’t think I could stop if I wanted to! So no worries, you are in good company!
Lisa commented on Sep 15 11 at 7:01 pmthanks for posting this! I had a miscarriage earlier this year and am pregnant again and am terrified of miscarrying again. It’s good to know I’m not alone in the worry and very reassuring to hear other people think about this and have perfectly healthy children (thank you to the above commentors!)
mybottlesup commented on Sep 15 11 at 7:41 pmwow, thank you all so much for commenting on this post! i am blown away by your sincerity and really appreciate all of the encouragement and the “me too” comments. coming home to see comments like this on a post are what makes this community really neat (to me), so thank you, truly.
Michelle commented on Sep 15 11 at 11:22 pmIt’s amazing that this site seems to read my mind each time I’m on here because I was just wondering today if I was normal for tp checking everyday! I got pregnant 17 days after a miscarriage and am currently 17 weeks pregnant and still worry everyday.
Tara farley commented on Sep 16 11 at 2:48 amI’m 16 weeks and still check. I had on and off spotting early on due to an infection. It seemed like every time I would talk myself out of checking I’d be spotting again! I’ve never had a miscarriage. However, I did loose my first pregnancy pretty far in at 26wks. I’m trying to stay positive, but at times it’s hard.
Teri commented on Sep 16 11 at 9:47 amI had a still born at 21 weeks, and a miscarriage following that! So I totally get it! I got pregnant again after those & I was paranoid, check the tp all the time, I did feel a little relief when I could feel her moving, cus as long as she was moving she was ok, but I dreaded the ultrasound because that is how I found out the one I lost had passed. So no it doesnt go away, it does get a little better when you can feel your baby move, but that will be on your mind until they hand the baby to you!! My baby is now 3 and we are about to start trying for another & I am still freaked out!! Best of luck to you!!
MJ commented on Sep 16 11 at 12:17 pmI am 29 weeks and still check!!!!
Rachael commented on Sep 20 11 at 6:56 pmThis is my first pregnancy, and considering the way we conceived, being lesbian moms, I check my toilet paper constantly. I dont’ really have the necessary tools at the ready if my body were to fail me. I am scared to death it will happen. My partner continues to chastize me about checking my toilet paper, but like you, though I haven’t had a miscarriage before, I am checking it too. Perhaps you’re right, we should all just drip dry. :)
Sunday Stilwell commented on Sep 21 11 at 8:32 amAfter two miscarriages when I finally conceived my first son I checked the toilet paper like a mad woman through the entire damn pregnancy. However, toward the end it was more in hope of seeing a bloody show so I could get the damn baby out of me and into my arms.
With my second son, same thing. I think its just what a woman does after suffering a loss. We need that constant reminder that everything is okay. We need the visual and there is no way around it.
Alexia commented on Sep 21 11 at 9:23 amI just hit 14 weeks and have finally stopped checking the toilet paper every time. Now it’s just once a day or so. It will get better. Make it to the second trimester and you are good to go. Until then ‘take a deep breath mommy’. And know that many of us feel your anxiety too…
Jennifer commented on Mar 08 12 at 1:42 pmI had a Miscarriage in October. I was just entering my 7 weeks and it happened so slowly and horribly i remember every gruesome detail right from the beginning of the very light spotting and the mild cramping and everyone and i mean everyone from family to doctors telling me that was completly normal and just relax and i did just that i put my feet up and didn’t walk alot tried to de stress. Then as the days progressed and a few days turned into a few more i was bleeding full on cramping like never beofre and i new i was having my ultimate night mare i was having a miscarriage. It was devistating and I dont think i will ever get over it. I am now entering my 8 week of pregnancy and I check the toilet paper in detail to make sure there isnt’ the littlest amount of spotting. I did spot at 4 weeks and freaked my self out so much I had to have an early ultra sound. I have since had a second ultra sound and seen the heart beat. My breast are nausous I have horrible cravings and extremely bad morning sickness none of which i had with the first pregnancy and yet i check the toilet paper. I don’t think I will ever stop checking the toilet paper. Its a reassurance it helps me relax – my family thinks im crazy but i figure it it makes me feel better what harm is it. if i didn’t check i wouldn’t constantly be wondering well was i spotting is everything ok. I would rather know straight forward.
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