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I Was Barely Ready for One. Is it Responsible to Have Another?

Posted by michellehorton on September 12th, 2011 at 1:52 pm

134056 10150101160788582 737608581 7412194 2011308 o 1024x682 300x199 I Was Barely Ready for One. Is it Responsible to Have Another? For those of you who don’t know, I had my son when I was 22 years old. To say that I wasn’t ready is a big, giant, monstrous understatement.

Of course just because you don’t feel ready doesn’t mean that you’re not. It turns out that sometimes it takes having a child to stop being one yourself, and I suddenly found myself utterly in love with not only this sweet child, but with my new life, my new role, my new self. There are many, many, many reasons that I’m grateful for being a younger mom – especially since my now-husband and I were both able to launch careers, make money and keep our heads afloat. Especially since I was able to become the person I was always meant to be.

But now that we’re talking about adding another to the mix, I often wonder When I wasn’t ready for the first one, is it responsible to have another?

It might seem like the pressure’s off for young moms. I’m not racing my biological clock, stressed about how many children I can have before my fertility declines. (And that, of course, is an incredible gift.) I technically could wait another 10 years to have the next. But when it comes to planning a family — specifically spacing siblings — I feel like us unexpected young moms are in a tough spot. Continue to grow our family when we might not be totally ready, or space our children out — perhaps further than we would like.

Even though I toyed with the idea of having an only child after Noah was born, I’ve watched him develop into a big brother. Affectionate and nurturing, he’s always the first to shush a room when a baby is crying and offer a sympathetic, “It’s okay. It will be okay.” He pats his baby doll on the back and puts him to sleep. He’s already named his future siblings (Thomas for a boy, Henry for a girl — both after his favorite trains).

 

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My son playing toys by himself.

Yet as much as I want to give him a sibling — a companion close in age to play with and teach — a part of me feels panicked. Maybe it’s because the rug was ripped out from under me the first time around, and I feel like I owe it to my family to plan the next one — and plan it well. Maybe it’s because I’m scared that the career I’ve built will crumble around me with too many added responsibilities. Maybe it’s because I’m afraid the added financial strain will put us back at square one, when we’ve worked so hard to beat the odds.

But then when I say those reasons out loud, they just don’t seem to matter. I’m not sure I’ll ever feel ready to add another child to our family — there will always be more career goals to achieve and more money to be made. And there’s no way I could feel less ready than I was three years ago. When it comes to acting responsibly, many people thought that having a child at 22 years old was an irresponsible decision, yet it turned out to be the very best thing that ever happened to us.

Maybe the most responsible decision is to question whether we, as parents, are ready — not whether our lives are ready. Because our lives will always shift, evolve, to make room for the next one. I’m sure it will feel like the perfect time.

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11 Comments

I hear you. I’ve always wanted to have my kids two or three years apart because my sisters and I are close in age and it was fun growing up with them. I’m only 22 now with my first one due soon. The only way I will have another in two years is if my husband and I are stable enough (i.e financially and emotionally). Its crazy to think I’d have two kids before I turn 25 but we’ll just have to wait and see where life takes us.

Jen commented on Sep 12 11 at 2:04 pm

I fully understand what you’re saying. I also had my first at 22 and am now (at 24) ready to pop with my second anyday. It’s especially strange for me because I grew up in a small community in the midwest where having multiple kids at my age isn’t a strange thing but here in a major city people get a lot more concerned about it and assume we didn’t plan either of them. Sigh. Good luck with your family planning. :)

Jenna commented on Sep 12 11 at 2:11 pm

I had my first when I was 17 in high school. Of course she wasnt planned. I am now 20. I graduated high school and Im working on my bachlors. I am married to the father of my child. We bought our first house and are happy with our lives. Am I crazy to think about having another child? My daughter is about to be 3 and I do not want them to be far apart? My in-laws are also asking when they will be getting another grandchild, but my parents think its too soon. I would love another baby, but what will others think?

Ashley commented on Sep 12 11 at 10:45 pm

Its totally got to be a decision you and your husband make and you can’t be concerned with what everyone else thinks. The only thing that matters is what you feel is right for YOUR family! As terrible and it may be to think about, our parents and our in-laws will not be around for ever, but starting your new family will in pact the rest of your children’s lives. I conceived my first boy when I was 22 and had him when I was 23.I was already married to my husband; we had been married for 5 months and this pregnancy came as a surprise. Now I am due with my 2nd little boy in 10 weeks and they will only be 17 months apart. My husband and I decided we wanted them close in age as some of our siblings were and that was a decision that we had to make and it didn’t matter what anyone else thought. I mean if you think about it, people may judge when they first find out, but once that little one gets here and they get to hold them, no one can deny a beautiful little baby! We thought our family was going to think we were crazy but they were all really happy for us and respected our decision. And when I asked my parents and in-laws if they thought we were crazy both sets said we had to do what we felt was right for our families and it was not up to them! I hope this helps Michelle!

Amanda commented on Sep 13 11 at 8:55 am

I had my first at 22 and struggled through the financial and emotional stresses of being a young, single mom. Now at 28, I am married and pregnant with my second child. Initially I had some anxiety when my husband and I found out I was expecting. For the last two years, I’ve had it in my mind that my son would be an only child because I didn’t want to have a huge gap in between children. Also, I just didn’t feel “ready” – although I think it was more of just being surprised than not feeling ready.

Now, a few months in, I’m over the moon. I think, for me at least, alot of the anxiety and worry came from remembering how unprepared I was the last time around. Luckily, I’ve got a supportive husband, we’re financially stable and emotionally, I am light years ahead of where I was six years ago.

Nikki commented on Sep 13 11 at 9:02 am

Such a beautiful post.  I ask myself this all the time having had my daughter at 20 and now she is quickly approaching her 7th birthday.  Everyone is constantly telling me I need to stop waiting (as they expand their own families) but for some reason the idea of having another child scares me and unlike the 1st time around I’d have much more help as I was a single parent then.  Not to mention I sort of feel like it would be starting from scratch.  It feels like so long ago when my daughter was a baby and sometimes I think we’ve already made it this far.  My at the same time my little one would love to have a sibling despite the huge age difference and my husband hasn’t experienced pregnancy :). Even so I always wonder how I’ll balance everything but forget that I raised a child, attended college and graduated from a Masters program with honors while working part time and staying up into the wee hours of the night to write papers and my little ones ok.  Her needs were met and she was happy and  People find ways to make it work all of the time right?  I loved what you said about thinking about if WE are ready vs. our lives. Thank you for sharing this.  Its nice to know I’m not alone in my fears.  Be blessed!

Krishann commented on Sep 13 11 at 10:26 am

It’s fine to have kids close together (mine are 22 months) but it’s also great to have kids that are 4-6+ years apart. They may not be the closest growing up, it really depends on the personalities, but they could be the best of friends as adults! Honestly child spacing is so whatever you want it to be. Each family is different, who cares what other people think! Irish twins or 10 years between, if you want a baby then have a baby, they will bless you and your family and their sibling(s) in many ways.

kat commented on Oct 04 11 at 9:18 pm

This piece was exactly what I needed. On paper, we are in no way ready for a second one. I am 24 and have a 19mo old, but I don’t want to wait much longer. I worry that if I wait too long, I won’t want to start all over. Anyway, thank you for the post. I can totally relate.

Renae commented on Oct 17 11 at 2:25 pm

I was 17 with my first 19 with my second. Our finances were rough while pregnant great while our first was young and prego with our second then our world crashed we became broke and have stayed broke for a long time. we are balanced right now but could easily fall over the edge. I want more kids, if i were to get pregnant right now our oldest would be five by the time baby # 3 was born. I want them to be close enough in age that they can relate to each other. I may have plenty of fertility time but that doesn’t mean i want teenagers and a new baby. We are both going to college and will graduate in about a year and a half. Hoping at that point we will have careers and be financially set. By that time our oldest will be like 8 by the time baby is born. we want 4 kids but 8 yrs apart?! I dont like that idea at all. What do I do?! Things always work out one way or the other financially even when we arent ready someone how it gets handled.

Savannah commented on Dec 11 11 at 6:05 am

I had my daughter when I was 20, and divorced her father shortly thereafter. It’s ironic because I want another child, but have found no male that I could stand long enough to entertain that notion with. I just want one more… and the catch is that I want both kids to have a father-figure around, which means that I WILL have to tolerate someone eventually. My daughter is already almost 5 and I’ve been pretty emotional lately because I just think to myself… how crappy things have been her entire life. Idk.

Alley commented on Jan 06 12 at 4:32 pm

On my 20th birthday, I found out I was having a baby boy. Since then our lives have changed so much. My son (Liam Archer) is now 5 months old. The hubby and I are already considering when we will start trying for our next, and I am thinking it will be very soon. We were both raised with siblings FAR apart and that’s the opposite that we want for our son. You have to listen to your heart. Because you never know if your going to be rich and completely broke, with a 1 bedroom or a 5 bedroom house. You can’t plan for stuff you sometimes can’t control. I am over at – http://www.olivejuicerebels.com

Cecilia N. Rodriguez commented on May 02 12 at 12:46 pm

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