I had to have a tubal ligation (PP) after my appendix burst during pregnancy. I was so broken afterwards. I was sad, angry and a myriad of other emotions. As a doula, I didn’t know how I was ever going to attend another birth. As a friend, I didn’t know how to put a smile on around my pregnant friends. As a wife, I wasn’t sure how to not blame my husband. As a child of God, I wasn’t sure how to not be angry and mistrusting. I was weepy all the time and didn’t want to see or read anything pregnancy related anything. I can totally understand your angst about reading homebirth stories.

On a side note, my story, thankfully, has a very happy ending, besides the fact that my baby and I lived though my appendix bursting. Two years after the ordeal, I called the surgeon to tell her I thought I was pregnant. She said it was “impossible”. I remember her hands shaking as she told me there was a baby in my uterus. After losing that little one, I decided to trust God and adopt the words of Job, “Naked I came from my mother’s womb, and naked shall I return. The LORD gave, and the LORD has taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD.” I learned trust and gained stronger compassion for other women in their birth stories.

And now, I wrap this up to go nurse my new 6 week old. : ) And, I’ll keep you in prayer as you journey through your story. C-section or homebirth, it will be a beautiful story and birth. You are in good hands; may grace and peace comfort your heart today and all your tomorrows.

Just always remember that your baby(ies) will never ever care about HOW they entered the world. what matters to them is how they are brought up in it, and that is the only thing we have control over as parents. No matter if our children are born vaginally or surgically, at home, birthing center, hospital or taxi cab, the end result is all the same. A precious baby. That is what matters mama. I have UTMOST respect and honor for those who have had c-sections, more so than for those who home-birthed. I believe we all do what we can for our children and in having them enter here safely and unselfishly, well then, we did our job perfectly. Good luck on baby #3, I bet you can’t wait to have him/her safely in your arms!