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Reflecting On Becoming A Mother
Wolf was only 1 day old here!
When I was pregnant, I had a little anxiety about becoming a parent. The thought of how much of my life was about to be flipped completely upside down scared the heck out of me. I said I was ready for sleepless nights, poopy diapers and worrisome moments as a new parent and on one hand, I was. But there was part of me that wasn’t ready to give up the life that I had before Wolf arrived.
I had many tearful moments in those first few days after we brought Wolf home. I was exhausted, confused, stressed out and overwhelmed. I had many moments where I questioned my ability to continue feeling so tired and out of place. My heart was there but my body wasn’t. I’d cry big sobby tears to my husband who would assure me that things would get better. I knew that they would but the adjustment was hard to get used to. Going from being completely free of responsibility and a tad lazy a times, to being slapped with a responsibility that I couldn’t just hide from or skip out on for a few hours was too much for me to consume in those few first days.
But now that Wolf is a month old, things have gotten much easier. We’ve gotten into a routine. We’ve taken him out to dinner with us a few times and even went on a short overnight vacation. I’m learning Wolf’s cues to know when he’s hungry, tired, wants to be changed or even when he just wants to snuggle. We’ve gotten really good at calming him down and he hardly cries except when he needs something. Life with a baby really isn’t that hard – it’s just finding the balance and making adjustments where need be.
As I sit here and type this, Wolf is sound asleep on my lap all swaddled up with his bottom lip tucked in and a tiny smile on his face. He’s really a good baby. And he’s impossibly cute. He’s beginning to coo and smile at us and his eyes are more alert. Every day I feel a love for him that grows immensely with each passing moment and I can’t even think about turning back. Yea, I miss lounging in bed for as long as possible on Sunday mornings, skipping out on responsibilities for a day or going out to dinner with my husband on a whim. But Wolf is my #1 now. In just a short month, my life has changed to revolve around him and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
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somebody is one month old! » unruly little things commented on Jun 29 11 at 12:00 pmD commented on Jun 25 11 at 1:38 pmYou’re doing great, it took me much longer to adjust to having my first child…and then, 4 years later, my second child.
SJ commented on Jun 25 11 at 10:28 pmmy baby is 3 months old, and i still feel a bit sad from time to time. my heart is so full of love for him, but i still feel mournful of my old life. and then i feel bad for even feeling this way. but thanks for sharing this – reading about other (new) mothers’ struggles make me feel not so alone.
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